Sorry for pulling a Don Draper on the sewing-blogosphere and just disappearing... A lot has happened in the past few months and I'll do a little bit of explaining, and then hopefully I'll be back to sewing soon! I got a couple of very sweet comments over the last few months asking if everything is ok or if something happened. Nothing terrible happened, I'm fine now, just a bit of a "quarterly-life-crisis" and a "seamstresses-block" of sorts.
I quit studying biology, because after only a short time I realized that a job in that field is not going to make me happy, and I need to be in an environment where I feel inspired and I can create things. This wasn't an easy step, as I always just kind of assumed I would go into science since that's what I was good at in school, and it felt like I was letting myself down by quitting. I know I could've gone through with it, I know how to study and get good grades and all, but just studying for 5 years for the sake of studying would not make me happy.
Then at the same time as I was dealing with the whole "what do I want to do with my life" I also had some other personal issues (in short: someone I thought I could count on to be there for me and understand and support me just dropped me, among other things), and it took alot of time for me to learn to like spending time with myself again. Sewing felt impossible during this time and I also didn't want to push it, I decided to wait until I felt like it again.
So after a month of just being at home, spending time with family (in Switzerland and the States), I did hair and make-up for the musical group I was in last year and the year before, did (and am still doing) the costumes for a theater piece my friend is directing (opening night is next saturday, yikes! not too much sewing involved though, mostly looking for the right clothes and buying, it's cheaper too...), visited London for a long weekend with a friend (started collecting hats...), got a job at a jewelry store, visited my friend studying in Paris and a few other things I probably forgot (like spending a ton of money on etsy). I've decided to take 1.5 years "off", to just work (feels good to be making some money!) and figure out what I want to do. I'm thinking of going into fashion design or costume design, or maybe even acting, but I'm trying to keep an open mind. And who know's what'll happen in the next 1.5 years? Maybe I'll decide I don't want to study at all?
And I'm feeling better. I still have mood swings where I suddenly feel no motivation to do anything at all, but I also have phases where I feel like being creative and doing something (like rearranging my room!), and in general I feel more stable and emotionally independent.
For now (starting after the opening night of the theater piece...) I'm going to spend my weeks like so: Monday - Wednesday I'll have time for my own projects (and occasionally jewelry store work) like blogging, DIYing, learning to drive, taking dance classes, baking, cooking (something I really want to learn to do well!), sewing and building an online shop (something I've been wanting to do for ages! So much planning to do first though), Thursday and Friday I work at the jewelry store, and my weekends will be spent doing whatever needs to be done (from finishing dresses to lounging around eating chocolate).
The only thing left to tackle right now is sewing! I do feel like sewing again, but the thought is also a little scary, I haven't done anything for almost five months! Winter is almost over, meaning there's no point in sewing the Winterdresses I planned. I think this is a good thing, because I need a bit of a fresh start now. So I'll keep those dresses in mind for next winter, giving me space for new summer dress ideas!
This got a lot longer than I wanted but I guess it's ok, after all, it's been four months, almost to the day! I'll finish this post with sketches I got via email about a month ago, thank you Moshe Asher!
Imgaes (c) Moshe Asher, 2012
So hopefully I'll be back to posting dress inspiration and plans, and actual home made dresses again!
Thanks for sticking with me through the past "four dead months".